Lessons Learned: A blog about my life

Friday, July 29, 2005 Sarah told me that she and her boyfriend were no longer eating anything that comes from animals. She was looking through the fridge and pantry to see if there was anything she could eat. She couldn’t eat bread since it had eggs, milk, and butter in it. As she tried to…

Sunday, January 2, 2005 Richard still hasn’t found a job. Whenever I see Beth and her husband, they have all kinds of advice about my mom. They are close to her and can’t understand all the contention. I told Beth that her relationship with our mom is different than the one I have. I also…

Sunday, November 14, 2004 It looks like Richard’s medicine is starting to work. Hopefully, he will be able to get a job soon. I applied for food stamps and was approved. I am so glad because now we can start getting the food that we have missed. Wednesday, December 1, 2004 Things are going so…

Wednesday, September 1, 2004 Before Jared had left on his mission, he would often watch scary movies at his friend’s house. When he got home, he was afraid to sleep by himself. He would then have Johny sleep in his room so that he wasn’t alone. Johny had gotten used to sleeping in Jared’s room.…

Thursday, May 27, 2004 When I got home, Laila and Johny clung to me. They both told me NEVER, EVER to leave them home alone with their dad EVER again! Sarah seemed distant. I can’t sleep before I fly because I have too much anxiety. I can’t sleep on the plane because I am too…

Monday, February 9, 2004 When Jared came home from work today, I asked him if he would like to go with me to Denmark. Jared said, “I thought Dad was going with you.” I told him that his dad needed to stay home and make sure that Sarah was okay. Jared was excited about coming…

Tuesday, January 13, 2004, Richard was supposed to drive Sarah to school on his way to work, then pick her up afterward. He had been acting strange. He slept less than two hours a night. He took the dryer out of the laundry room and left it in the middle of the living room. Then…

Saturday, January 3, 2004 I went to check on Laila to see what she was doing. Her bedroom has beautiful burgundy carpet. She had taken the bleach spray bottle and decided to clean her carpet. Her carpet remains burgundy but is now covered with white blotches. I want to cry. I didn’t get mad at…

Saturday, July 12, 2003 I went camping this week with Sarah and the Young Women in our ward. I had been looking forward to it and hoped it would bring Sarah and me closer. When we arrived at the campsite, I was told I couldn’t sleep in the same tent as Sarah. I said, “But…

Monday, February 10, 2003 Laila’s ears were hurting, and she couldn’t hear. Throughout her life, she has had 6 sets of tubes put in to help her ears drain. This time, when I took her to the ear specialist, he said both of her ear canals were draining the wrong way. He had hoped that…