Sunday, June 18, 2017
At church today, while we were in class, Mike’s grandfather asked the teacher if he could tell us some things about his grandson. The teacher said he could take up as much time as he wanted.
When Mike’s grandfather was done talking, he asked if anyone had any questions. A man raised his hand and asked, “Ever since your grandson has passed away, has he visited with you or anyone else you know? Or have you had any spiritual experience? If so, would you mind sharing it with the class?”
I was dying to raise my hand and say, “I had a visit from him!” I didn’t want to take the attention away from Mike’s grandfather, so I didn’t say anything. Besides, I felt the visit I had was too personal to share.
Tuesday, July 4, 2017
Even though it’s the 4th of July, I worked in the yard.
While I was working, I wondered how Jared and his family were doing. I missed them terribly and wished I could be with them to celebrate Independence Day.
As I was working, Mike’s Dad and brother stopped by and asked if they could put a flag in my backyard. It had a yellow ribbon that said, It said, “In Memory of.” With his full name on it.
I felt it was an honor to have it in my yard.
Monday, July 31, 2017
After Mike’s visit, the nightmares went away. I am so glad, because now I have the energy to get my license so I can have a preschool in my home.
When the Fire Inspector came out, I failed the inspection. It was because the bricks Richard had put in were so wobbly.
I must admit I was glad. The fire inspector gave me a paper saying to cement the bricks together to keep them stable.
Instead of cementing the bricks together, Richard glued them. The inspector came back out. This time I passed the inspection. Now I just hope it will hold.
I have finished painting the playhouse and made a walkway. My hard work is starting to pay off.
Saturday, August 5, 2017
As I was working in the yard, I thought about Jared’s birthing. It was coming up this week. I wondered what I could get him that he didn’t already have. I wanted to get him something special to let him know that I loved him. His birthday wasn’t until Thursday, so I still had a few more days to think of something.
Sunday, August 6, 2017
All day I tried all day to think of something special to give Jared for his birthday. Then I thought I couldn’t stress over it, since he probably wouldn’t want it anyway.
Monday, August 7, 2017
While I was working, I kept trying to come up with something for Jared. Since I couldn’t come up with anything, I paused and said a prayer, hoping for inspiration on what to get him. I still couldn’t come up with anything, so I kept working, hoping it would come to me.
As I kept working, I could feel someone next to me. This time, I couldn’t make out who it was. He told me not to worry about coming up with something for Jared’s birthday because it would be provided for me. I wanted to know what he was talking about. He repeated that there was no need to worry about it; it would be provided.
Tuesday, August 8, 2017
As I was working away in the yard, I thought, there are only a couple of more days till his birthday. I hoped I would have come up with something by now. Just like before, I was told not to worry about it and to trust that it would be provided.
Wednesday, August 9, 2017
I had worked all day in the yard, and it was starting to get late. I thought about Jared’s gift and had hoped it would have been provided by now. But no one has shown up with anything. Even though the impression had been so strong, I thought I had probably just imagined that someone had said it would be provided. Then I started worrying about what I could get Jared for his birthday, since it was tomorrow.
Just then, I could feel the man standing next to me. He told me to look at the pathway I had made a while ago. I looked to see what it was he was talking about.
It was an arrowhead. I could hardly believe my eyes! I hurried and picked it up. I had walked on the pathway so many times. I wondered why I had never seen it before.
As I looked at the arrowhead, I asked the man if it was okay for me to give it to Jared. He asked me, why wouldn’t it be? I told him because Jared no longer liked me and thought I was crazy. The man responded, “He loves you, and he doesn’t think you are crazy!” I didn’t believe him, and I was sure Jared would accept it.
Then he asked, “Do you want a second arrowhead to confirm that it’s okay for you to give it to him?” I respond, “There is a second one?!” I immediately started to look for it.
As I was frantically looking for it, he said, “You can look for it all you want, but you are not going to find anything. If you want it confirmed that it is okay for you to give it to him, then you have to pray and ask for a second one.
I was excited about getting another one, so as fast as I could, I said, ” If it’s okay for me to give this arrowhead to Jared, could I have a second one to confirm it. Amen!
I could tell that the man was happy with the excitement I was showing. He gave a slight chuckle, then he said, “No, that’s not a prayer. You need to ask properly.”
This time, I folded my arms, bowed my head, and prayed. When I was done, he instructed me to put my hand in the mud that was in the wheelbarrow.
As I was putting my hand in the mud, he said, “Now you will know for sure that it is okay for you to give the arrowheads to Jared.” As I slowly moved my hand into the mud, I was stunned to see an arrowhead come up.
I grabbed it and pulled it out. I could hardly believe that I was holding another arrowhead in my hand. If I had not seen it with my own eyes, I wouldn’t have believed what had just taken place!
This whole time, Richard had been in the yard about 15 feet away from me. I wanted to run to him to tell him what had happened. Instead, I stayed right where I was. I wanted to enjoy this moment just a little bit longer.
I wanted to ask the man a few more questions about how I was to give the arrowheads to Jared, but he was gone. I then rinsed the arrowheads to get a better look at them.
After I had washed them, I took a couple of pictures and posted them on my Snapchat. When I was done, I walked over to Richard to show him the arrowheads.
As I was telling him how I got them, I could tell that he wasn’t listening to a word I was saying. Then he asked, “What are you going to do with them?” I told him, since it was Jared’s birthday tomorrow, I was going to give them to him.
I had barely finished my sentence when he pulled them out of my hand and ran off so that he could give them to him. I ran after him and said, “Wait, his birthday isn’t till tomorrow!” Richard yelled back, “It doesn’t matter!” and drove off.
I waited anxiously for Richard’s return so he could tell me how Jared had reacted when he had gotten the arrowheads.
When he returned about an hour later, he told me he had texted Jared and waited outside his house, but he never answered his text or came to the door. I asked him to give me back the arrowheads. He didn’t want to. Since I wanted them back, I didn’t give in until I got them.
Thursday, August 10, 2017
All day, I was wondering how I was going to give Jared the arrowheads. I was scared to text him. He was usually home from work at 5:30 pm. I was thinking that if I waited outside his house, I could give them to him then.
A few days ago, I had asked a man to make me a stand for a statue I had bought to put in the backyard because of what had taken place. He told me it would be ready in a couple of weeks since he was backed up. He would text me when it was done. This man lived a few blocks away from Jared.
Since I was scared of bringing Jared the arrowheads, I told myself that I would only go to Jared’s house if I got a text saying the stand was ready to be picked up. I knew that wasn’t going to happen since the stand wasn’t ready for at least another week.
At about 4:30 pm, I got a text saying I could pick up my stand. I couldn’t believe it!
When I went to pick up the stand, the man told me he had put my order in front of all his other orders. He said that when he realized what I was going to use the stand for, he felt I should have it as soon as possible. I thanked him. Then I headed to Jared’s place.
When I got there, it was almost 5:30 pm. I parked my car by Jared’s house, then texted him to let him know I was there because I wanted to give him somethig since it was his birhtday.
While I was waiting to hear back, I thought it was weird for me to think that I had more communication with the dead than I had with my own son, who was alive. I waited till it was almost 6:00 pm. Since I hadn’t heard back, I went home.
When I got home, I was sad that I had not heard back from him.
I started to think about when we had picked him up from a mission, both Jared and I had prayed for two arrowheads, but never found one. Here I had two that were given to me, and I wasn’t able to give them to him. I felt I had tried and needed to accept the fact that Jared no longer wanted anything to do with me.
I then got a text from Jared saying he had been working late and was on the freeway when he got my text. He let me know that he would stop by on his way home.
A few minutes later, Jared showed up. As I handed him the arrowheads, I told him how I had received them. Jared listened as he carefully unwrapped them from the tissue paper.
I told him that his dad had come to his house last night to give them to him. I was glad that Jared hadn’t responded to his text or answered the door, so I could give it to him personally.
Jared looked at his phone. Then he said, “Looks like he did text me, that’s strange, I never saw it or heard him knock.” I responded that it was probably because I was the one who was meant to give them to him.
Then I asked Jared if he could feel the person standing next to us. I told him he’s the one who gave me the arrowheads.
Jared looked at me. I asked again if he could feel the man’s presence. He answered, “No, I think you are the only one I know who has this ability.” Then we smiled at each other.
Jared asked me how I was doing. I told him about all the yard work I had done and asked him if he wanted to see it. We then went into the backyard.
The first thing Jared did was walk over to the grape vines. As he picked the grapes, it brought me back to when he was a child.
I got a lump in my throat and held back the tears. It seemed to me that it was only yesterday that he had been running around in the yard and then paused to eat the grapes.
Then he said they taste as good as I remember. I laughed and said, yes you always liked them. I don’t know how you can eat them since they are so tart. We both smiled.
I had missed him so much, and here he was in person! I wanted the moment to last forever. Then I thought about how quickly his childhood had gone by. Since time can’t be controlled, I would just have to enjoy the moment. A moment that would never have taken place if it hadn’t been for the arrowheads.
He couldn’t stay long since his family was waiting at home for him. Before he left, I thanked him for coming and told him that I loved him. Always had and always will.
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